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Bound to the Struggle


Bound to the Struggle

Why does it seem we are
Bound to the struggle?

Each person has things that
Pulls on the heart and soul.

They are as unique and
Different as each of us.

Some are more visible.
Some more destructive.

Yet all have one thing
In common – sin.

A falling below what would be
Your perfect will for us.

Yet, we struggle and we yield.
Feeling hopelessly bound.


To come to the end of ourselves.
To realize our great need for You.

To experience Divine Forgiveness
And the beauty of Your Grace.


You are sufficient for me.
You are all I need.

So I stand in the struggle
With my eyes focused on You.

~ Laurie Pontious-Andrews

2 Corinthians 12:9

Each time He said, “No. But I am with you; that is all you need. My power shows up best in weak people.” Now I am glad to boast about how weak I am; I am glad to be a living demonstration of Christ’s power, instead of showing off my own power and abilities.





I know You see the tears I cry.
I know You’re touched by the pain I feel.
I know that You see the fight
And the struggles I endure.
All of this pleases You.

It is not my pain that causes You to smile –
Nay it is what I do with that pain.
It is how I react to the lesson.
It is what I glean and learn from the experience.
My faith is what brings You pleasure.

I will not give in.
I will not give up –
No matter how hard or difficult the road may be.
My faith grows stronger with each new lesson.
Even when I falter, I still grow.
All of this pleases You.

There is a new day on the horizon.
There is a new me being created.
The old is dying and steadily losing her power.
The new is growing and emerging little by little.
All of this pleases You.
And this, in turn, pleases me.

~ Laurie Pontious-Andrews

The Process


The Process

Sometimes, I’m strong.
Sometimes, I win the battle easily.
This makes me feel as though
I’m never going to fall again.

Sometimes, I’m weak and stumble.
Sometimes, I lose the easiest of conflicts.
This makes me feel as though
I’m never going to overcome.

Both of these conclusions are wrong.
It’s all part of the process.
The process of recovery.
The process of growth.
The process of change.

The good, the bad,
The difficult, the easy –
It’s all part of the journey.
I’m only a failure when I quit and give up.
I’m only a failure when I refuse to try.

Thank You for the power of Your Grace
That generously flows when I’m falling hard.
Thank You that there is indeed an Eden awaiting me
And You are standing there cheering me on.

~ Laurie Pontious-Andrews

Hating My Own Humanity


Hating My Own Humanity

So many times in the recovery process
I lose my footing and slip and fall.
Then I feel guilty and condemned.
Thoughts of giving up and quitting
Swirl about my head.

When I find myself in this pitiable place,
I hate my weaknesses.
I hate my failures.
I hate my humanity.
I hate myself.

I slide into a deep depression
And I feel so far away from You.

But the truth is that You’ve never
At any time abandoned me –
Not even when I’m at my worst.

The truth is that You knew
I was going to slip and fall.

The truth is that You know
Each and every one of my failures –
Past, present and future –
And, yet, You love me still.

You see way down deep
On the inside of me –
A heart that is wholly devoted
And wholly in love with You.

This is all that matters to You –
Not my weaknesses,
Not my failures,
Not my humanity,
Not even my own miring self-pity.

I love You so much –
Mere words cannot possibly convey.
And yet, no matter how much I love You –
You love me far more
And will never, ever let me go.

~ Laurie Pontious-Andrews