Monthly Archives: April 2014

In the Company of Wolves


In the Company of Wolves

Believed to be genuine
Turned out not to be.

Not free to be me.
Not having needs met.
All give with no return.

People pleasing.
Unable to say no.

Depleted, yet continuing to sow
Without yield.
Without benefit.

Lacking depth.
Lacking honesty.

Give and give some more.
Unable to free myself.
Unable to close the door.

Ultimately, betrayed.

Abandoned as an outcast.

Doomed to repeat
With the same results.
How deeply the wounds penetrate.

Preferring silent isolation
To the company of ravenous wolves.

~ Laurie Pontious-Andrews


Making the Choice


Morning Thoughts…

Some days are harder than others. Some days are bright and shining while other days can be quite dreary.

I was reading Habakkuk this morning.

“Even though the fig trees are all destroyed, and there is neither blossom left nor fruit; though the olive crops all fail, and the fields lie barren; even if the flocks die in the fields and the cattle barns are empty, yet I WILL REJOICE IN THE LORD; I WILL BE HAPPY in the God of my salvation. The Lord God is my strength; He will give me the speed of a deer and bring me safely over the mountains.” Habakkuk 3:17-19

No matter what type of day it is we can still CHOOSE to rejoice and be happy in His Presence. He promises to be our strength. He promises to see us safely to our destination.

Isn’t that beautiful?! ❤️😊


“We need to face rock bottom alone.”


“We need to face rock bottom alone. ”

I have been there. Three years ago I realized I flat out couldn’t do it anymore. I wanted to disappear. I stopped absolutely everything I was doing as a workaholic, people pleasing, codependent, enabling, unable to say “no”, perfectionist… I could go on, but you get the idea. I started seeing a therapist weekly (still am). I have come a very long way, and it has been incredibly difficult and painful. I have decluttered relationships, my life, my home, and countless other things. It’s been quite a journey and I am still in process. It’s so awesome knowing even when you’re alone that you’re not really alone. Maybe no one you know understands what you’re going through but there are others out there who do. Maybe that’s a very small thing but it offers great comfort to a heart that is doing the brave, hard work of healing.

“When we stop fighting with ourselves, beating ourselves up because we can no longer function as we are used to doing, it clears the way for the next stage of our lives. Deep despair signals that deep inner work needs to be done, work which has the potential to raise us to a new level in our lives. It’s a lonely road, but we can make it less lonely by walking it deliberately and embracing the small supports that can help us through.”

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Of His Own Choosing


Of His Own Choosing

As a very small child
You wooed me through teachers
Who had a heart for You.
I needed You as my Big Brother.

As a young girl
I chose to welcome You
Into my heart.
I needed You as my Protector.

As a young woman
I rededicated my life
And heart to You.
I needed You as my Savior.

As a woman
I began an intense journey
To know You, deeply, intimately.
I needed You as my Healer.

You chose me.
You revealed Your very heart
And Your love for me
Simply because You chose to.

~ Laurie Pontious-Andrews

Deuteronomy 7:8-9 – Prayer/Promise

But because the Lord loves you and because He would keep the oath which He had sworn to your fathers, the Lord has brought you out with a mighty hand and redeemed you out of the house of bondage, from the hand of Pharaoh king of Egypt. Know, recognize, and understand therefore that the Lord your God, He is God, the faithful God, Who keeps covenant and steadfast love and mercy with those who love Him and keep His commandments, to a thousand generations,

Ephesians 1:4-6 – Prayer/Promise

Even as [in His love] He chose us [actually picked us out for Himself as His own] in Christ before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy (consecrated and set apart for Him) and blameless in His sight, even above reproach, before Him in love. For He foreordained us (destined us, planned in love for us) to be adopted (revealed) as His own children through Jesus Christ, in accordance with the purpose of His will [ because it pleased Him and was His kind intent] — [So that we might be] to the praise and the commendation of His glorious grace (favor and mercy), which He so freely bestowed on us in the Beloved.

1 John 4: 10, 15 – Prayer/Promise

In this is love:not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent His Son to be the propitiation (the atoning sacrifice) for our sins. Anyone who confesses (acknowledges, owns) that Jesus is the Son of God, God abides (lives, makes His home) in him and he [abides, lives, makes his home] in God.

Embraced by Truth


Embraced by Truth


How often they have been
Pronounced over me
From young age to older years
By those who should
Have loved me best
By those who were meant
To nurture and encourage.
Not to tear down and destroy.


How often You have embraced
Me through its warmth
Delivering me from the painful
Sting of bitter lies
Restoring me to full
Health and wholeness
A place of Righteousness,
Security, and Honor.

Your Truth, that is greater
Than the greatest of lies
Triumphs over the chief liar himself
Fully delivering me from his grasp.

~ Laurie Pontious-Andrews