Acceptable Sacrifice

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Acceptable Sacrifice

It is a very painful process.
One that I’d like to run from
But am unable to.
One that I’d like to stop
But don’t know how.
One that I’d like to be free of
But I’d never be whole.
So I give myself over fully
and endure the pain.

​I’m not good at being strong.
I turn away from it,
Shrieking in terror and pain.
I rant and rave and throw fits
But in the end I always return.
I know that it is what I need.

​There is much hatred, rage,
Unfulfilled revenge, pain, hurt,
Trauma, rejection, abandonment,
Forsakenness, anger, silent screams,
And an ocean of un-cried tears
And unspoken love.
So much holding back.
So much isolation and loneliness.
All of this lies buried deep
within the recesses of my soul.
All must be exposed.

Like the alabaster box
My “priceless treasure”
Must be broken and poured out.
Poured out at the feet of my Savior.
Offered as a sacrifice to Him
In full faith that He will enter
Into those places and pour out
His healing balm and bring me
To a place of wholeness and health
Before the Father.

~ Laurie Pontious-Andrews

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About unabashedhope

The name Unabashed Hope comes from my favorite poem by Emily Dickinson. Unabashed means not embarrassed, disconcerted or ashamed. I believe Emily's poem, Hope is the Thing with Feathers, says it best: Hope is the thing with feathers That perches in the soul, And sings the tune without the words, And never stops at all, And sweetest in the gale is heard; And sore must be the storm That could abash the little bird That kept so many warm. I've heard it in the chilliest land And on the strangest sea; Yet, never, in extremity, It asked a crumb of me.

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